Unfinished projects

I am so bad about starting personal projects and not quite finishing them. I get overwhelmed in time - like my lack of it.

When we locked down a year ago, I was determined to keep my family safe, my child comfortable and happy, and learning and become the best cook ever. Instead, I spent a month watching the news, trying to work to the best of my ability through the anxiety of not finding toilet paper and cleaning supplies and spending way too much money on games, craft kits, and things to make cards for my kiddo's friends, ’s friends that he missed at school.

I didn't know that month would be my last chance to do all of these things. Instead, about a month later, I got sick, and all of these things sat in the living room on the side table and then passed through to the kitchen for months.

I didn't know that month would be my last chance to do all these things for a while. Instead, about a month later, I got sick, and all of these things sat in the living room on the side table and the pass-through to the kitchen for months.

This photo was one of the last boxes I packed when we moved in July. It’s full of things I planned to do before I got Covid in March 2020. It’s full of addresses and cards that never got sent. Games and crafts I never played with my kid. It is full of stuff that I made my family promise to leave alone and let me keep right by me as I slept through the day because I just knew I would get to it.

I didn’t even pack it. I wasn’t even sure what was in it. To be honest, I thought it was my husband's stuff, and I was annoyed that it's been on the stair landing to the game room for months. I was trying to organize some this afternoon and get laundry caught up while I worked. I picked up this box full of what I thought was paper, and the top came off. 

The top flying off was a metaphor for all the emotions that washed over me when I realized what was there.  I sat on the landing and cried. I’m so sad for the time many of us have lost. I am mad about the 500K plus people that lost their lives and aren’t here to find their boxes,  I’m anxious about being such a crazy lady with this still.  I’m beyond tired of not being 100% myself again.

I am so lucky. Many people I know have lost not just time and pieces of themselves but also their careers, financial stability, relationships, and overall well-being. Our healthcare system and the amazing workers are working their butts off but are fully unprepared to treat acute or chronic cases at this point because no one knows what is causing them!  I am getting a little better every day, and I hope my vaccine will give me more light at the end of this long year. I also hope that no one else has to get #covıd and or become a #longhauler.

Stop listening to your best friend's sister's boyfriend's brother's girlfriend who heard from a guy and knows a kid who is going with the girl who caught it and is fine. I guess you can say it's pretty serious. Stay the course. Please get your vaccine. Keep wearing a mask where you need to.

#covidlonghaulers #longcovid #mycovidjourney #Covidvaccine #momovercommitted #teddyforpresident #momblog 

Give yourself grace for unfinished projects. It’s not over yet.